Every now and then, I get a wild hair up my tail and decide that I need to join a group to give back to society. Ultimately, I know that I’m very bad about joining and participating in groups. I don’t know why that is but sometimes I feel like I need an additional social outlet that also makes me feel like I’m contributing something other than legal opinions and raising a child to this world.
I felt one such wild tail last year around this same time when I almost joined a philanthropical group of women. Almost for a number of reasons. Mostly, because I was too tired. When I say too tired, I mean literally too tired.
I went to one meeting at the leader’s house. She lived in a swanky neighborhood and had her house decorated for Halloween. She had painted glasses for all of us (I wish I had time to paint glasses). We had wine and nice conversation.
During the “happy hour,” before the actual meeting, several of the women asked me the same question: “Do you work?” To which, I responded –yes, I’m a lawyer. But I thought, do I work? Doesn’t everyone work? What is this not working that you are alluding to? Who doesn’t work? And how can I get that job?
After the happy hour, we had the meeting where all of the fundraising activities were discussed. It was very clear to me that they were all very into raising money for a really good cause–which was what appealed to me in the first place. When the meeting was over, our host told us to take our painted glasses with us and bring them back at the next meeting.
I drove home but I was so tired. Massimo wasn’t really sleeping all night long. I woke up at O dark thirty in the morning and my commute was really bad. I nearly nodded off on the way home from the meeting.
I still have my glass. Every now and then I see it in the cabinet. It stares at me, reminding me how bad I am at joining groups and how I really should give that nice lady her glass back.